Past Years😊😊😊thankY GOD😊

21 years of my life has gone through and another year of my life  is now starting. There is so many memories either bad or good must be remember because it reminds me of everything. Every mistakes remind me not to do it again, wrong decisions tell me t decide better next time but I guess some mistakes and wrong decisions used by God for me to be as me today, I may not  perfect person but I becoming a better person every time I stand whenever I fall and realize how I am blessed with my life because God is always with me whatever steps I take and even I fail Him always, like sometimes I do not call out His name that means I am not needing Him? No, I need Him but I am too lazy!

For past years I have grown so much from a child to adult but one thing for sure even before I was born God always guide me, that is a assurance for me. Thank You Lord for my life, sorry if sometimes I thought I don't like to live anymore and I hate myself, sorry Lord for hurting You! Thank You God for my years of being on my mothers wound, the years as me as a infant, my years as a child and to the time I start to walk and You stood still to see me, when I already kid, a tween,when I became teen and started to have a crush on boys, You were there watching, and to the time I learn to love to someone at the same time I met You JESUS, even I am so dumb to fall in love,You were there maybe allowing me to make decisions and commit mistakes not because You like it but You want me to learn from it, that someday I may use it! And You still there when I experienced my dolor at broken heart😭it really gives me pain so much that I don't know how to do that I remember there is only prayer I always recited to You, that You take away my feelings for him, I know when I am in those situation You are hurt to see me crying and do not know what to do, until I move on and find another man, You are still there! 

Thinking my years to have You in my life , I am really ashame because I did things that do not pleases You but still Your amazing grace abounds within me. Oh God how can I thank You? 

Sometimes Lord, thinking Your unending love makes me more condemn me because I commit countless sins😥😥😥 but I know You want me to love You more instead of hating myself, that You died for me because You loved me that much! That You are there ever since the world began!!! Thank You Lord🙏 thanks for my life, I may grow more with You🌹

-Miche-

Lead Me

Dear God,

Lead me Lord! Lead me by the hand! Hay sorry Lord. Are you tired of me?maybe because I always do things that doesn't please You and I say sorry and after that I doing it again.😭😰😢😨are You tired of me?

Teach me to trust in YOU with all my heart oh God! To lean not on my own understanding God help me to do things which pleases You! Help me to do the right thing!☺️☺️☺️ 

In times of trouble You cover me, in times of trials You help me, in times of heartaches You comforts me, in time of sadness You remind me that there is a joy in Your presence, there is a peace in Your arms! What could I ask for more? It's in You alone oh God I experienced the safest place that I could hide whenever I don't know what to do!😗😗😗

#leadMe

#guideMe

#teachMe

(Feb 26, 2015)

Another letter

Dear God 

thank you for this whole day! What a big day, even though I've hurt you, you never fail to guide me, I am always standing before You because of Your grace that abounds to me! Thank You so much.

I feel like I want to see You Lord but I am not worthy to stand to You face to face, I am shameless person if I see myself base on the things that I did, but You never failed to remind me that I am loved by YOU! Oh thank You JESUS

#thirstOnGOD

My letter for Him

Dear God,

I did disappoint you again today, saying sorry is not enough. But still God I am really sorry, help me Lord to feel the pain of being sorry! God change me.. I'm sorry God, I am not really worthy to stand before you :(

God can you help me to go back to time that I was very much in love with you.  The time that I think You are the only one for me, that I value You more than anything else.

Lord make my heart, a heart that melt, don't make it a heart of stone so that eve trine that make a sin, it feels guilt, sad and not ok with the things that I did wrong!

#ImSorryLord

#JESUS

(Feb 25,2015)

My dream man

I was young when I thought about a man who is perfect to me. Who is handsome,tall and a man who could love me the way I am, a man who accepts my strengths the same as weaknesses. I always dream about him who could love unconditionally, who knows me ver well. As I grow up I really find that man because I grew up that I experienced a less love relationship with my parents, I experience bullying, I heard hurtful words and it makes me feel less think good about my self, my self esteem became low at the point that I don't like to see other people. In that reason, I want to experience the love that I never experienced to anyone else. And after all the years I thought I found Him but I guess He found me, he found me at the road that I've been walking for years and still can't reach my destination. He found me wandering and asking for love that no one can give in this world. He came near to me and introduce Himself, yes I met the One who could complete my life. The One that loves me more than I ever expected, the One can accepts me just the way I am because He knows me very well. Yes He is JESUS who died for me, He already demonstrate His love for me even I didn't know Him before. Wow!😂 so amazing grace! No one can compare with it. No one can do it for me 😋! Great to know that someone who died for me and loves me that much! Maybe He's not the man I dreamed physically but He is the One I dreamed who will love me unconditionally 💗❤️💖! JESUS is my TRUE LOVE 👧!!!